I want to say this though. Last night, something big happened to me. I came across the instrument I used to self-harm. Back in those days, it helped me to feel again. Something. Anything. Even if it was just pain. Well... I got rid of it. It's not just in a hiding place if I later decided I need it. I threw it in the trash. It's gone forever. Why? Because I don't need it any longer and I never will again.
I've come far.
I'm proud of myself.
I have so much left to learn and a lot to look forward to.
That's not to say I don't get down on myself if I have a bad moment or even a bad day. It happens.
Yesterday is the past. Those moments are history.
I'm living in the moment.
It's a breath of fresh air. You should try it.