Friday, January 15, 2016

Are we really all too busy for one another?

I would give up just about everything to move back to my hometown in New Jersey. I know what you're going to say...New Jersey?

-The food

-Everyone let you know where you stood with them

-Knowing all the perfect places to go and the anticipation of your kids finding them as they grow

-Great friends

That's just touching on it. I could talk for hours about what's so great about it. 

I clawed my way out of that small town when I was 19. Not once did I ever believe I would want to return there for good. But oh, how I do!

I had the best friends. I will never have friends like that in my life again. I have an ungodly amount of friends on the interwebs who are dear to me but none in the flesh. I need that and I miss it. Making friends as an adult will never be easy. 

The exhaustion I carry with me is not describable. My body is shutting down physically and mentally I can't even explain. Having someone close to me would lift my spirits in the most tremendous way. 

What gets me the most is I relocated my family to Colorado to be closer to the people in our lives and it's nothing like I thought it would be. Not even remotely. 

I want my group of friends back that I knew I could count on. As adults, I think we would rock this thing called life together and enjoy doing it. Our kids would grow up together as we watch on in the distance. 

I need people in my life I can depend on.

The only person I can depend on is myself and that's no way to be. 

When did we all become so wrapped up in our own shit that we became too busy for each other?



1 comment:

  1. You know what they say, you can't go home again. It was true for me and others I know. But for you it may work out. I hope it does.

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