Sunday, February 28, 2016

I'm Not a Peacemaker

Do you ever feel like someone is always asking you to tone it down and to sort of give everyone else a break for the sake of making peace?

I'm a firm believer in doing what's right for me in order to keep my mental health as even as possible. This might mean avoiding a social situation, taking a mental health day from work, spending the day in front of the TV and not showering, or cutting people out of my life (even if that isn't for the long-term). 

If my actions happen to cut through the feelings of others in the process, that isn't my intention. My intention is to take care of myself to the best of my ability. 


Everyone is going through something. That includes me. 

So I put this out there...

How about you give me a break? 

How about you bend? 

How about you find it within yourself to be kind and admit wrong doing? 

How about you take that first step?

I'm all about facing my fears over the last 3 months. I share my stories publicly in order to make others feel less alone. I put myself out there, not for attention, but to make others feel more human. 

I've called a national radio show to read my poetry and that's empowered me to audition for a local show...to stand upon a stage and share my story in front of a group of strangers. 

If I've helped a single person in the process then suffering with this mental illness has been worth it. 

But no. I will not give everyone a break. Why? Because I am suffering and while I'm helping others, I'd like to be taken care of too. 

How does that sound?




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2 comments:

  1. That sounds absolutely, perfectly right.

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  2. I've lived my life like that. I now have no friends and I'm unemployed. I believe that living like you portray is simply what bipolar disorder looks like. The biggest challeng for BP people is to show the love you have and to live humbly. I don't say this to be hurtful. It's just my .02.

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