Saturday, June 11, 2016

Should I or Shouldn't I

I'm in my living room, seated in an over-sized chair next to an opened window, pleading with nature to allow this cool-ish weather to linger for a little while longer. 

I just finished scanning through Netflix for about an hour to find something to watch. I'm going to relax today no matter what. After all that time, I settled on a movie I may or may not have already seen. And where did "My List" go? Surely there's something on there to gaze at. One day I'll figure this thing out.

First, let me say this about the state of my mental health. I'm fantastic. I'm moving forward with the power of being positive and finding the good in everything (among other things like daily affirmations, meditation, yoga, accepting and releasing my past and living in the here and now, reading, studying, listening, watching the beauty of the world as your here and now unfolds). Most of you will leave now because you're against the fact that this could actually work. Want to know how I know? I was you once. Then one day, after hospitalization, I was reintroduced to the idea after turning my nose up at it time and again. This time was different though. Want to know why? Because I was ready. And so it is...

Second, I'm still taking my medication. I'm not safe enough in my own mind to take away the chemicals that help to balance me out. For now. I've added some vitamins to the mix (Fish oil, vitamin D, Magnesium). I was listening to a prerecorded show of a talk given by Dr. Northrup and I was sold. 

Third, I was contacted to contribute my story to a book. It's volume 2 of a book as volume 1 did rather well and there are more stories to be told. I'm torn on this one. I'm not 100% by any means, but if I were to do this, I'd rather my story pick up from most recent incidents and leave it where I am today, feeling better than I have in years. I don't want to take a trip back to the dark side. I want that in my past, buried in the ground for now, unless it's going to wholeheartedly help someone with their current situation. I feel like I've done that to death and there's enough of my story online to be found. 

700-1000 words---What do you think? Should I do it?