Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Anxiety Triggers

Today started off easily enough. I got ready for work and doubled down my caffeine consumption to avoid falling asleep at work (this wasn't successful). I arrived a few minutes later than usual and there were already people here. This triggered me because I'm usually first and have a short while to get settled.

There's almost never a lot of people in my office, but of course today, many people showed up with their speakerphones at the ready. They just don't think. All that noise!

We just moved to this office and it has an open concept layout. Meaning, the conference room doesn't even have doors. Meaning, I could hear every word pouring from inside of it.

I don't like taking more anxiety meds this early in the day because it makes me mellow to the point of wanting to possibly doze off. So when my anxiety hits the first thing I do is eat. It's only 10am right now and my lunch is gone.

I can't focus. I can't sit still. I'm sweating. I feel so nervous about nothing. I want to self-harm but I'm trying to stay away from that. My mind is going and going and going but yet, it's filled with nothing important.

All I can do is breathe through it for now.

Breathe and listen to my 90's alternative station on Pandora and hope for the best.

What are your triggers? How do you get through an anxiety attack?

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